It's My Story

2nd trimester

2012-04-01T11:32:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling a bit better now than 3 months ago...its started with a bad flu and fever for at least two weeks then came the morning sickness which is so different form my previous pregnancy...i got headache everyday after twelve noon...and didn't want to eat which make me look thinner coz I've lost about 6kg for the past month....I only eat few portion of white rice everyday...and i think it's pay back time now...my appetite seem to be recover...and luckily i didn't 'muntah2'...only if I've over eat then all of it will came out as it was....just like my previous pregnancy, i prefer more veggie than meat...padahal kalau tidak pregnant; ayam goreng and telur mata kerbau sja...even my favourite drinks (kupi 'o') pun i hate...totally different 'roller coaster'....

I shared the good news with Isaac and Ivan.....and Isaac was hoping for another 'Isaac' so that he will had someone to do things for him...and Ivan still didn't understand what is happening :)..and he's angry with me coz I've to stop him from breastfeeding...and it's been a week now but he still trying to get lucky ;) ....this third child of ours will be my greatest birthday present coz he/she will be born before end of September...just few days after my birthday....and how great it will be IF we can share the same birth date....and at the moment, we just want a health baby...but of course since I've two boys in the house, would it be nice to have the opposite gender...above all, we love you so much already and its doesn't matter what gender it is...we just want a healthy baby...amen.

Isaac 1st day @school

2012-01-06T17:07:00.000+08:00

I was among some of the working mum that won't be able to experience sending own child to school on the first day....it's the day when they start to believe only what their teacher said instead of own parents...and it will always start with 'my Lau Seh said...'......Isaac enjoy his school day very much...and when i asked him what he learnt at school...."i learned ayam and buaya"...."my Lau Seh..got small rotan bah.."...it's was funny....as for Ivan, he felt lonely during the first day at home without his brother...then when the time come to pick up Isaac...he will run to his class and called out Isaac...the happiness to be together again is indescribable...

Ivan waiting for Isaac

p/s: Isaac...mak will pick you up every friday ya...and will send you to school if mak got meeting in the morning too...

2011 summary

2011-12-28T16:32:00.000+08:00

2011 was a good year but somehow something along the year could be more better...and I've been not that actively update my blog too because I've nothing too share just typical ordinary days....and as for my working environment, it's really nice to be in gred A school...the burden is lesser that small school...you only hold one or two important position at school but as for my school, we lack of 'bantuan kerajaan' since it was a missionary school so it's really hard to get A4 paper for photocopying and other stationary too...you need to buy it yourself....

As for Christmas, the kids was excited and this year I'll be celebrate the Christmas at my MIL...since the CNY was just around the corner too so need to save some budget lah...

what else....I'm planning to have our third bundle of joy next year...and been trying since October but no luck yet maybe 'rahimku tersepit lagi'...maybe i need to be massage again...will do it soon...

so 2012...I'm not wishing for anything, i just want my family to be granted with good health and happiness all throughout the year...that's all i want...

Happy 7th Anivesary

2011-12-03T16:39:00.000+08:00

Marriage is a Wonderful Journey That You Make Together

In marriage,

walk the path together,

side by side

whenever possible.

Remember to hold each other

when t is cold.

If the air becomes too close,

make a little space so each

can breath.

When the path is narrow,

pick one to go first.

Always be willing to follow;

don't be afraid to lead.

Trust your partner, trust yourself,

for marriage is a journey that leads to great love.

...Mary E. Buddingh...

kundasang

2011-10-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since the last trip of our family short holiday...so here we are at cattle farm of kundasang....love this place so much. Not that many picture taken just few photo...actually it's my school trip and frankly, it's boring coz we didn't go to poring..

..us..

...love this pic...

Futsal under 12

2011-10-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

This is my futsal team during the carnival futsal under 12 at Tambunan...even thou we didn't win the medal but really enjoy the experience.

"After each game, I want to be able to say: I gave it all I could, I gave it my best"

pizza cake

2011-09-24T11:34:00.000+08:00

my birthday pizza

Another year is a happy gift,
So cut your pizza, and say,

"Instead of counting birthdays, I count blessings every day!"

p/s: instead of having a cake for my birthday; I'm baking myself a pizza...sound weird but i enjoy it very much...and for this year, i just want to be granted with good health all throughout the years and many more and...and...perhaps hit the jackpots...:) Happy Birthday Elsa...

what...

2011-07-19T19:21:00.000+08:00

It's has been 10 years for me working as a teacher...and with HIS will, I'll be teaching for another 10 years perhaps...above all, praise to the lord that I'm still be able to works with good health and be able to stand on the ground firmly and of course the patient...patient towards my pupils...hopefully it stay that way for a very long time too...but in future, i would love to works in the office or maybe other departments...who's know, just wait and see...so, after officially getting my black and white DG32...I'll be applying for my DG41 next year and will go through interview again...which i need to read all the 'things & stuff'...preparing document and just get ready...by then maybe continue to another level...it's all in my plans...i just hope I'll be achieving some of it before my 40s coming....one day at a time...

Isaac is going to be 4 this year and already registered him at SJKC Yuh Min last Wednesday (13.07.11)...and giving him the ideas of going to school is a mix feeling..and when he saw the pink uniform, straight away NO!!! i don't want to wear that!!....hahahah...teaching ABC's & 123s is another story, teaching my pupils at school is easy but own kids is like something...ermmm..well, i don't know how to explain perhaps you'll get the experience when the time comes....but big thank to YouTube and all Disney channel...my Isaac learn a lot form them...and of course MTV too....i just can't wait for his fisrt day at school..

Food For Thought

2011-06-12T11:33:00.000+08:00

James 5:12 urges Christian to let your "YES mean YES and your NO mean NO". This is important advice for parents. Parents who consistently deliver on what they say they'll do, are respected and taken more seriously by their children.

Parents who vacillate between executing a "yes" and "no" are seen as weak and even pliable. Consider the mom who does not have the heart to discipline her child.

"Wait until your father comes home!" she threatens. What will the father do that she will not? Usually he will deliver on what he says - and junior knows it.

Colossians 3:21 says to fathers: "Do not provoke your children, so that that may not become discouraged". Parents provoke and discourage their children when they fail to keep their word. Children become unsure about being able to trust such parents. But when a parent cannot deliver on something, it is best to explain the change of plans to the child and offer an apology if warranted.

When you really think about it, parents who deliver on a promise to reward or a threat to punish demonstrate a form of self-control that will not escape any child's notice.

[Courtesy to HERALD June 12, 2011]

Holidays & Tunang

2011-06-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

Elsie & Cyrus

Finally it's holiday time...and as usual before the holiday, need to finished all the so called work so that i can enjoy my holiday peacefully...so this time around, will be busy with two engagement cover story but i think I'll be most busy during my youngest sister (elsie) tunang ceremony lah...which is on the fourth of June...and everything was need to be prepared a week before the actual date...shopping, cleaning, cooking etc...and as for me, I'm quite clam with myself now...and my first week holiday were just fly in a blink...as for the second week, well i guess I'll be resting and be full time mommy lah...which give me headache but loving every minutes of it....and Isaac will be registered at Yuh Min kindergarten right after the school holiday....how time has passed...few more month, he'll be wearing school uniform and need to wake up early too...i wonder what happen by that time......until then, i just want to spend my another five days holidays peacefully with my kids...

Lately....

2011-05-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

i really dunno what i felt at the moment...my feelings...it seem had been mix up in a blender... hard for me to express my true genuine feelings...I've lost something along the way and i dunno what it is...i felt empty...really empty...

Actual Wedding Workshop

2011-04-20T10:39:00.000+08:00

I love taking photo but only bought my DSLR on 2009...since then, many trial and errors along the journey as a greenhorn photography..and still need more improvement and basic knowledge in capturing moments...great moments. So too gain more knowledge, I've attended "Actual Wedding Course" by Benny Liew...he's very generous with sharing tips and ideas...but one's need to practice alot in order to get what you want...some of the things that mention during the course was never came to my mind...maybe next time I'll do that during my photography session....what i need to do before and after...thank you for the opportunity...

Ms. May Yunna...the beauty was mesmerizing

...Yunna & Fizy...

the man behind the workshop...Mr.Benny Liew

Mr. Fizy....melt every woman heart

Chinese Birth Calendar

2011-04-12T20:44:00.001+08:00

Lately, I've been busy with this

i'm going to try it out,

i wonder what would the result be,

and with HIS will,

hopefully it's gonna work out..amen.

Maqui Juice

2011-03-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

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Spank or Not?

2011-02-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

Right cheek

Left cheek

Is it okay to spank or cane your child? It's an age-old question. Some people believe that if you spare the cane, you will spoil the child. Others advocate there is never a good enough reason to resort to hitting, spanking or caning the child.

Last Tuesday was public holiday, and we were having some family members come over the house for some chit chatting session and of course their kids is tagging along with them. As we were busy story telling while the kids were running all over the place...without any warning, Isaac cried out loud and the way he cried i knew he was in pain...really in pain. As Isaac approaching his daddy, i noticed that his expression was different...the father of my child was very angry...angry with what had happened....a child scratch Isaac face...and it's bleeding...and what worse is...the child's mother just say 'nakk..jangan bah jahat' in soft voice as she walked to her son...and that's all she do...nothing else...nothing! it was not the first time he scratch his friends face...he had been scratching his cousin faces too...as for me and hubby, we definitely will have long conversation later...

Any mother will be hurt to see such situation and frankly, i do spank my child BUT extremely rare. It's only on occasions when they simply do not listen and it could endanger them. In such situations, I would spank them there and then. It's a good way to discipline them so they learn to respect the laws and rules. Usually, i will spank them on their butt or hands but of course not hard enough to leave scars but painful enough to remind them that what they had done is wrong or dangerous and to make sure they will think twice before being naughty or disobedient again in future....of course i definitely will feel bad about it - they're my babies but that's the way our parenting...you'll be spank if you've done something wrong...if it is the first time they doing wrong or being naughty or disobedient we'll explain to them why they shouldn't do something or misbehave. Spanking is always a last resort.

I would never tell parents that it's okay to spank if they can't help it or if they feel they have to, because I know there are people out there who can't control themselves and they go overboard. You have to ask yourself....Whether you say it's the right thing to do or not, you need to consider whether the person spanking the child is doing it for the right reasons or if they're doing it to release tension.....so it up to you...do what the best for your children...spank or not?

Ovarian Cysts

2011-02-11T18:20:00.003+08:00

Ovarian cysts are small fluid-filled sacs that develop in a woman's ovaries. Most cysts are harmless, but some may cause problems such as rupturing, bleeding, or pain; and surgery may be required to remove the cyst(s). It is important to understand the function of the ovaries and how these cysts may form. Women normally have two ovaries that store and release eggs. Each ovary is about the size of a walnut, and one ovary is located on each side of the uterus. One ovary produces one egg each month, and this process starts a woman's monthly menstrual cycle. The egg is enclosed in a sac called a follicle. An egg grows inside the ovary until estrogen (a hormone), signals the uterus to prepare itself for the egg. In turn, the lining of the uterus begins to thicken and prepare for implantation of a fertilized egg resulting in pregnancy. This cycle occurs each month and usually ends when the egg is not fertilized. All contents of the uterus are then expelled if the egg is not fertilized. This is called a menstrual period. In an ultrasound image, ovarian cysts resemble bubbles. The cyst contains only fluid and is surrounded by a very thin wall. This kind of cyst is also called a functional cyst, or simple cyst. If a follicle fails to rupture and release the egg, the fluid remains and can form a cyst in the ovary. This usually affects one of the ovaries. Small cysts (smaller than one-half inch) may be present in a normal ovary while follicles are being formed. Ovarian cysts affect women of all ages. The vast majority of ovarian cysts are considered functional (or physiologic). This means they occur normally and are not part of a disease process. Most ovarian cysts are benign, meaning they are not cancerous, and many disappear on their own in a matter of weeks without treatment. While cysts may be found in ovarian cancer, ovarian cysts typically represent a harmless (benign) condition or a normal process. Ovarian cysts occur most often during a woman's childbearing years. (read more..)

Yesterday..i receive sms from a friend of mine (sa...sya ada ovary cyst..)...i was totally shock because i knew she was so very healthy...didn't drink or smoke...and she was an athlete....i call her, she told me everything. the pain started last month but yesterday the pain was unbearable and needed medical attention immediately and she insisted to be scan (as you know, government hospital only scan a person when the person is half death or else) so the result show that one of her ovary had been swollen...then guess what, she needed to be in waiting list to meet the so called DOKTOR PAKAR...luckily, she didn't wait for it and when to Rafflesia Medical Center the next day...and the result was truly frightening coz the sacs has been 10cm big/long...and needed to be operate ASAP...next Monday, she'll be admitted and will be removing the sacs for sure...but unfortunately, her insurance didn't cover the illness...and had pull everything out to pay the bills...it's around 4k++....and as a friend, i only can offer a shoulder to cry on and of course dedicate Sunday mass to her...hopefully everything when well...and she so grate full that she's already had two kids of her own...and me, myself can't imagine what she going through at the moment...i just hope and pray that she'll be fine very very fine after the surgery...Cath, I'll be praying very very hard for you..so don't worry ya...i love you...

To all women out there...please check your insurance policy make sure it's cover for this illness OVARIAN CYSTS and CYSTIC FIBROSIS...if not please do get one for yourself...it won't cost you much...If you want, i can introduce you to my agent which is also my hubby....just take a minute and think deeply about it...but if you're super rich then it will be another story.

Gong Xi Fa Cai

2011-02-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

it's bunny year and as usual we'll be having family reunion at my grandma house...everything is about family, food and drinks of course and this year we started karaOK and the kids pula yang pajak mic...me, all song was sung sumbangly but who's care...yang penting menyumbang kan...but actually someone did CARE...my lau kung lah...he's the only person who will shout from afar """binikuuuuu...sumbanggggg...""...hahahaha...above all we enjoy our CNY very much....i didn't drink till drop as ivan was tailing me all the time...so me jadi bar tender sja lah...here's some pic that i manage to captured...

the kids with they choir style

it's debbie birthday wit home made cake

isaac with his long face..waiting for his piece of cake

ang pow time

lion dance

mau buat magarita but after few shot...my nenek called it "menderita"...hahahah..and keep calling for menderita to be serve....

the 1st day of CNY...we're having mee soto...

debbie's birthday

soooo....wishing all family members and friend gong xi fa cai and may the year of bunny will bring us lotsa luck, fortune and good health all through out the year....

2010 & 2011

2011-01-16T10:48:00.000+08:00

....Dec 2010....

Xmas was awesome...family gathering and foods was delicious...and so does Ivan birthday party...thanks to Rev. Fr. Valentine Gompuk for the holy mass during Ivan's Birthday...well, 2010 has been a very good year to me as mommy and wife even there's some bumpy road here and there but eventually we all manage to get through it specially after having our second child...the house has become merrier as ever and family trip will be our annual highlight of family events..thank God for everything.

This year also will be the the last and final year for me at SK Kitou. My application to transfer to nearer school had been approve and I'm super happy about it. I love teaching here but under some circumstances, I've to move to new school which nearer to home because Isaac will start his schooling time next 2012 so thank God my prayer were answered....and because of some issue that i really can't stand...so better for me to put it aside and keep moving forward...and to those people who's keep making trouble and keep telling other that they're no good at anything, hope you'll find peace in yourself...should i say RIP!

...Jan 2011...

Usually i would turn right and drive like 50km per day but on the first day of school (3 Jan 2011) i was turning left and drive for about 15km perday and will be home at 1pm if there no meetings or AOB...and it only took five to school if the road was clear...and i felt something that very unusual, my routine has been change and felt lonely during the first day...i knew most of the teachers there but maybe we haven't bonding yet so that's why i felt a bit left out and after two weeks working in the new environment, i felt accepted and still looking for that one particular person who's can be the one that willing to hear all my rumbling toughts...above all these things, i'm happy to works at new school.
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For this year, i just want my families to be in pink of health all through out the year and may this bunny year bring us more prosperity and luck in each every one of us.
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...as for the photos, next entry lah kio..

Working + Xmas

2010-12-20T16:53:00.000+08:00

xmas present

The Xmas gift is half way and if you notice there's some labels haven't been stick yet coz i didn't know what to give to those person...four more day to go, i guess i think of something by tomorrow or so...and wrapping these present isn't easy coz Isaac and Ivan tend to tear everything before Xmas so I've to do it late at night or whenever they're not around...and of course to put on my monster face each time they out there hands on the present...and after few yelling form they mommy monster...they just ignore the existing of it which makes mommy alot happier but keep asking "can open already kah makkkk"...few more to go..

the official letter

I receive the official letter last week and my new work place will be at SRK ST David Toboh Tambunan...dekat sudah kan...super HAPPY! and going to lapor diri on 28/12/10....and as for now, I'm really struggling (kunun) to kasi siap all the things and stuffs (Nota Serah Tugas) before heading to new school...but xmas is almost here and my working mode berkarat sudah so had to kasi siap juga lah kan...and the KSSR yearly....what choice do i have???

our xmas tree

This is our Xmas tree...being put up with lots of love...my kids do the decoration this year so macam macam ada...most of it Disney character...Isaac was the one who's very excited to put up the tree as he knew Xmas is coming soon....coz everywhere he go, he'll see Xmas tree so he ask me to find our xmas tree lah...mau kasi beautiful2 he said....and the lip lap is still working after being kept in th box for almost a year...so tidak payah beli lah lagi....and he request to build a snowman...."makkk..why no snowman"...too much cartoon i guess....so me pretend didn't hear what he said....hahahahah...

p/s: when the fun is getting started....it's mean school season is approaching fast too...

meoww

2010-12-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

Went to kuching for my first family holiday...actually our flight 1- 3 dec had been reschedule so I've to change the whole trip to 6-9 dec...apa yang nampak kalau terbang malam...and as for Isaac kasian nie, to kuching gelap and return pun gelap..teda erti...bikin panas but what to do kan so change date mean extra RM lahh....but it worth every single peeny to see Isaac smiling and excited face....he was super excited to ride on airplane and he was so wanted to go home after the first night....we stay there for three nights and do some shopping of course but not that really shopping coz compare to KK...it's better here :) we rent taxi for the first and second day for touring purpose and it was fun and tired....since Ivan still not walking properly, we have to carry him everywhere...overall, I'm loving it! Next year...we'll be ready for gambar pasport....

isaac admiring the kapal

croc in action

my anak2

....and the BEST about kuching is NO NO NO pilakssss....

it's here...

2010-12-02T15:25:00.000+08:00

Hubby: apa tuu...

Me: adiah xmas...

Hubby: sapa punya...

Me: sa sma si elsie

Hubby: apalah ....

Me: Handbagsss....heheheheh

Hubby: aiksss..bukan ko baru beli bag ka tadi....

Me: ya lahhh...tu beli d tamuuuu...nie online..untuk xmas present...

Hubby: ...........

Xmas present shouldn't be open early kan...but can't help it...mau juga buka tigu2 and test2...then bungkus balik lah....pretend to be surprise later...hahahhahh....i guess my Fabian nie or man, would never understand why most the woman needs more than one bag or shoes or clothes...even they were same pattern or size..what's make it different is the colour...but still want it in twelve varied colour...

Holidaysss

2010-11-30T18:50:00.000+08:00

I started shopping for Xmas present since yesterday (online)..and already bought few bags for me and my sister...the website was having a sale so what the heck...just key in numbers and wait for it to arrive soon...so who's next on the list...few more presents i guess...and next week we'll be flying for a short break of holiday and shopping of course...hopefully the flight won't be reschedule again...will clean our Xmas tree tomorrow and search for the ornaments...ntah mana sdah tu...and sure minta tukar lampu lip lap again...every year tukar...it's shopping...it's shopping...timeeeee.....

it's..

2010-11-26T12:59:00.000+08:00

It’s the fifth day of our seven weeks holidays…and most of my day was doing my part time job…buat sasad and full time housewife…next week will be going for our first family holiday trip…It’s not far, just next to Sabah…the land of hornbills…test test the kids naik aeroplane… and perhaps if murah rezeki urang bilang…we go over the sea next year…and I’m in the mood of xmas, and it’s shopping time and present of course…usually, I buy clothes that can be wears during CNY too…coz here at kampung, we only wear new cloths to church then after that tukar sdah jadi seluar pindik…easy to move and moginum and of course play daun turup…so gonna make my xmas lists but always end up with spending more than the budget list…

WOW moment

2010-11-20T09:52:00.000+08:00

WOW moment in my own definition is the moment i cherish, the moment that I've been waiting for and the moment to say "I'm proud of myself"...it is my own record breaking...during my yester-years, i have a few of my WOW moment...

My first WoW moment is when i receive my SPM result...with the result, i can enroll myself to any uni in Malaysia but unfortunately, my parents can't effort to let me 'go' ( no education fund) and luckily i was excepted to Maktab Kent and now I'm a teacher...

Another WoW moment of course my first "slip gaji"....the waiting is so unbearable and when it's there in the account...i was like spending most of it in food...because i love eating so much :)

Next, when I'm taking my marriage vows on 28 Nov 2005....i really dunno how to describe the moment but what i can recall is, I was shaking with happiness...

My big WOW moment is when i was pregnant and gave birth to Isaac and Ivan which is both 4++kg....the journey of motherhood was truly a long life time learning....everyday is a new day and my life was totally change...everything is about my kids...the decision, the astro program (monopolise by Isaac), the colour, the food and so on...and I'm happy about it...

So, today around 2pm I'm suppose to have my WoW moment again but i can't experience it and i can't go...I'm going to get my degree at PWTC today (20/11/2010)...it's not that i can't effort but no one will be there for me to witness the ceremony...it will be wrong for sad tears running out my eyes...its should be happy tears...one of my friend went there alone with another friend ...she told me "bagus ko jangan pigi kalau saturang sja...nanti lepas abis acara, semua urang kena sambut, ada bunga sma patung...begambar2...sedih sja" after she told me her story, i saw tears at the end of her eyes...of course i don't want to be alone...I'm sad really sad...i can't turn back the time...just moving forward i guess...just because you hate the whole ceremony things and its boring but how about me? my feeling? doesn't it matter?...doing thesis with kids is not easy...going to class during weekend which i suppose to spend with my family is not my choices to made...and after all the hard work, the fight and so on...moral support is all i need...i didn't ask for anything else, just be there for me when i need you...i don't hate you but how i wish if....

I just want to let it out...so that i will feel better about it tomorrow...

Now that you’ve graduated

Nothing can stop you now.

You’ve worked hard to get your degree;
It’s time to take a bow.

Wind of change

2010-11-18T20:02:00.000+08:00

after my third attempt and filling the "e-tukar"....the result was TAHNIAH!!!...but i haven't got the official letter yet and I'm feeling super happy...bye bye to 50km driving per-day for seven yester-years..